On Being a Woman

     I know lust over material things is not very simple. Some may even say it's not what makes one happy. That one should avoid thinking about what he/she does not have and focus on the more purposive things.
      But to say that you have to wear what you have while everybody else looks fantastic, is, for a woman, an embarrassing thing. Not that I focus on outside appearance to get satisfaction of myself, but majority deal with appeal when they decide to treat you superb, nice, or not so nice.
       I have thoughts of style and comfort if I have all the money and resources. I don't pretty much like the way I look now. Figure can always be worked out as long as extrinsic motivation is present. I am tired of wearing what's available. I want to look good and feel good. But with what I have now, I would only go as far as "try hard to look good". If only I have all the resources. It takes satisfaction of myself as a woman for me to be happy.
       Life looks very easy, but is actually hard on me. I'm blaming it with how I look. I absolutely want  a change for myself. I want to feel like a woman- try out new dresses, shoes, bags, get a new hair-do, get nail art, relax on a spa, exquisite jewelries, impressive fragrant, and so much more.
        I know these wishes won't be easy. Gotta work hard. And if I do, I don't really think I could grant myself's wishes.

Short of cheer.