Men are from Mars, Women from Venus

Some people set a really strong impression that you would want to discover more about them. I met an Iranian guy in the past four weeks. I had then became interested, and excited to know him better. I call him Allie. I spell in an English name as I find his name a little bit uncomfortable to the tongue.

He has indeed a splendid spirit. He could sit for hours and entice you in an interesting talk, or acquaint you with  a one of a kind story. He is filled with luxurious ideas from famous people he acknowledge-at times it's almost a blow off his own trumpet. There was a time, I get bored with what I call a brag. But as I knew him better, I realized a beautiful soul inside him. He could lift a spirit that easy. He has this inducing might  to make you concur with him. He has, apparently, an extraordinary buoyance that converts a barren moment into a positive energy and make the universe conspire to his wishes. That's probably a lot-:)


We live a few blocks away from each other. We spent a couple of weekends together with a little fancy talk. I have been introduced to his friends and even his brothers. I have discovered many interesting things about Iranian culture that made me realize how deep their patriotism is to their country. From music, to dances, to customs and ideas--they got a really strong identity. I loved it.

I fell in love with the splendid character. I thought he was, too. But my character may not have been that strong to flatter him. Shooot..I almost thought we were in love. 

What turned me off though was his bossy character. He would say "Pls. come here" if he wanted to see me. He never says "Can I pick you up and maybe we can have a little walk and talk". Well, maybe my idea came from a culture I grew up into. And maybe his character with the given scenario is solely based on a culture familiar to him, too. So men are from Mars- am a Woman and I came from Venus- but we are diffinitely farther- so am guessin he is from Saturn or Uranus.:)

So this post is literally just another nonsense false-hopes of a romantic. Fortunately, I had enough of the courage and comprehension to get away from the feeling. We are still texting each other often, though I have already outdone the feeling of wanting him. I still want him as a friend. After all, it was all I have ever been to to Allie. He remains a source of cheer.

A Cannot be Found Cure.

(Tonight, I sent two of my close friends, messages in FB, applauding of their wedding. All of a sudden, my spirit is shoved to the bottom.)

            Why has he not found me? Why have I not been found by anyone just yet? I am just here, and I have been waiting for a while.  

            The world is persistently sending me off-the-cuffs and false hopes.:(  I’m fairly in no doubt that I did not plead for anyone with a benchmark. In reality, I don’t recall wishing for a sealed to perfection man to appear. I ain’t looking for a perfect guy. But I have been praying somebody will come and tell me am worth keeping- for real.

            I am blissful about  my friends who had been broadcasting here and there that they will be stirring on to a novel episode of their lives. But, the notion of white dress and floral, engender in me a feeling of misfortune, disappointment and pity. While all and sundry is busy crafting the foundation for a soon to ascend marriage, I am wedged in a fancy and veiled bond. I am almost set to face the truth that I’ll be by myself perpetually.

I CAN COUNT WHAT I CAN RECALL...

...and i feel guilty about not being able to recall quite a number.
They say the small things count. But i seem to remember just the big things, only to realize it can't make a happy soul out of me. Lemme name them...
1. January 2012, I desperately grabbed the chance of working for another BPO company, APAC. Pay was parallel  to work load- I got absolutely no right to complain.
2. Right after being hired at the APAC, I got an urgent part time job offer at ACLC Cubao. Juggling between APAC and ACLC- I was tired but it was fulfilling.
3. March 2012, I took the Licensure Examination for Teachers. I was pretty sure I scored enough to pass, but quite afraid not landing on any place would not really satisfy anyone that much.
4. 20th of April 2012, I was given the chance to participate in a leadership training, and was picked the next Assistant trainer for the next batch of call center agents, whose classes is gonna start in a week.
4. 29th of April 2012, I got a successful result for LET, was trying my best to take it as a big deal. After all, only 24% had a good fortune of getting a "Professional teacher" title.Am part of the 24%- OK.
5. I performed and enjoyed my role as an Assistant trainer for a week, and my hopes for being picked the next Trainer for T-mobile account was outrageously positive- but I know it's gonna take some time.
6. Mid of May 2012, I handed my resume to two prominent schools in Manila, aiming for a high school teacher position. The first offer I rejected. The second one I failed. It was poise-knocking.
7. Almost end of May 2012, I was hired at La Consolacion Manila as a high school teacher. I resigned at APAC. ("This may not give me that much pay, but I am hoping it will be fulfilling at least.")

Now, am teaching 4th year and 2nd year English, and part of the BED Faculty at LCCM- starting to ask myself if it's something I really like doing.

My belief in this profession has somehow dimmed.

I feel really lucky, but happiness seem not be part of that LUCKY package.

I cannot wait for a change. I gotta work for it.