I CAN COUNT WHAT I CAN RECALL...

...and i feel guilty about not being able to recall quite a number.
They say the small things count. But i seem to remember just the big things, only to realize it can't make a happy soul out of me. Lemme name them...
1. January 2012, I desperately grabbed the chance of working for another BPO company, APAC. Pay was parallel  to work load- I got absolutely no right to complain.
2. Right after being hired at the APAC, I got an urgent part time job offer at ACLC Cubao. Juggling between APAC and ACLC- I was tired but it was fulfilling.
3. March 2012, I took the Licensure Examination for Teachers. I was pretty sure I scored enough to pass, but quite afraid not landing on any place would not really satisfy anyone that much.
4. 20th of April 2012, I was given the chance to participate in a leadership training, and was picked the next Assistant trainer for the next batch of call center agents, whose classes is gonna start in a week.
4. 29th of April 2012, I got a successful result for LET, was trying my best to take it as a big deal. After all, only 24% had a good fortune of getting a "Professional teacher" title.Am part of the 24%- OK.
5. I performed and enjoyed my role as an Assistant trainer for a week, and my hopes for being picked the next Trainer for T-mobile account was outrageously positive- but I know it's gonna take some time.
6. Mid of May 2012, I handed my resume to two prominent schools in Manila, aiming for a high school teacher position. The first offer I rejected. The second one I failed. It was poise-knocking.
7. Almost end of May 2012, I was hired at La Consolacion Manila as a high school teacher. I resigned at APAC. ("This may not give me that much pay, but I am hoping it will be fulfilling at least.")

Now, am teaching 4th year and 2nd year English, and part of the BED Faculty at LCCM- starting to ask myself if it's something I really like doing.

My belief in this profession has somehow dimmed.

I feel really lucky, but happiness seem not be part of that LUCKY package.

I cannot wait for a change. I gotta work for it.